Elder is such a great term, it is not suitable for a big friend like me. In my youth, what I lost is a kind of mentality. In fact, I have already lost myself.
Fujian
0%
Elder
柳州
In our thirties
Time has been on the fast track lately.
It is getting so fast that it gives me no time to react.
I need really to neglect how my SLR camera would feel, and I need to find a place for a romantic dinner and a pleasant chat.
Every time I take a plane and ascend to an altitude of 8km, I would have a feeling that my body gets emptied and that my brain gets cleared. I am then able to let down everything and think about all the emotions that I have tried to escape from. Anxiety, inability, excitement, talkativeness, evasion, desire, all these big-shots in my emotional world begin to have a retrospective meeting around the table.
「Psycho.」
Abstract in adolescence. Psychotic in youth. Scampish in middle age.
When we were teenagers, life was as tasteless as water, and days passed by without any change.
In our twenties, you said we were broke, and how about eating instant noodles for the entire month.
In our thirties, you said, youth? Where the fxxk is our youth? We have only days and months now.
It’s the end of August, and I wonder whether there are still rapeseed flowers in Menyuan. A flower blooms for a tree, and one smile spreads for one friend.
In those days when I was busy dancing with the pace of life, I did not send you a flower when I was 16, nor did I give you a house when I was 26. I wish I would be able to buy you a glass of mao-tai when I am 38. When I am 42, it will be the end of the 10-year plan. We will tell our stories. You will share with me yours and I will share you mine, which will be the most cherished hours in my life. For the rest of my life, I would like to fill a gap, choose a city, take one person with me, and nourish together a relationship.
I said before that I could only write code and that I could not write trashy words or poems. Maybe I can change. I can write a poem with your name in it.
People living near the sea. Oh no, it is really only near the sea. About several kilometers away from the sea.
Live in my own house, and get woken up by the chirps of the birds. Look out the window at the playful kids and idle old people. The wind that whistles by separates a year into two seasons, always agitating or sobering.
Let bygones be bygones. There are plenty of good sceneries. Even the sunset can be immensely beautiful. Life is full of unexpected encounters. Let’s just wish.
After I got off the plane, my little brother came to pick me up. It was at that moment that I began to realize for how long my heart had remained hollow. Always trying to escape is a kind of sickness, a chemical that brings about only silence.
Our frankness, though intangible, promotes our growth consistently. And meanwhile, we still cherish the hope to travel around the world.
Several lonely stars hang above in the night sky. Aimless, listless, just like life.
Missing has no shape, and you have never gone far away from my mind.
When I was young, I did not want to go back home. But I would count stars for a whole night.
More often than not, we can be very straightforward.
You did not look back, and I did not tell you to stay.
「OMG, I just realize I am turning 40.」
『So, what’s your plan for the rest of your life?』
「Well, the typhoon is coming.」
『Yeah, the typhoon is coming.』
I raise my head, and get myself overwhelmed in the sobering sea wind.
END
The white clouds
It should be an angel who was madly drunk and smashed the white clouds into pieces.
Jiangsu . Nanjing
柱子
The free person
In the cloud of smoke, people are looking for their love.
Without a permanent resident, the free person is the master.
Fujian
O ever weeping
Woke up that night,
it had rained hard that night.
In a room of about 15 square meters,
sitting on the head of the bed facing the window,
the coolness that blows,
with a slightly salty taste.
The world was quiet,
washing away my anxiety.
We are used to lives occupied by work,
then find our balance of life.
Get a point and desperately expand it.
Embrace the thrill of peak and enjoy the thrill of savage.
Pretend to bury ourselves in busy things and solid life.
Unconstrained by habit.
Looking around, it’s all bullshit.
You say three two one.
Leave some space.
Cut off from the hustle and bustle of the city.
Products received in recent years,
One is crazier than the other.
If I have to describe them in four words,
“****”.
Fill in the blank as you wish.
No matter how,
either way requires full commitment.
Get 120% of the spirit.
When life is not steady,
when the mechanical behavior becomes constant.
Find your feed.
When you are full, continue to kill Boss.
Instantly lit up.
They used to call him Mr. Xiao Cong.
Then they call him Professor X.
The older, the cockier.
The granary next door gave the head of the lunatic asylum.
All the time the workplace has been like a brothel,
No one could ever make it until they are old.
You look up too high,
only to belittle yourself.
Which is the real rogue self.
Which is the true self.
Which one is your favorite?
Always need an outlet for neuropathy.
Oh, four years, already.
Well, four years, it turns out.
What things have changed?
The thing that you are gradually adapting to is,
daily anxiety and restlessness.
Obviously, you have been living very seriously.
Still, carrying something?
What can’t you put down yet?
Some things that were thought to be important before,
will slowly be forgotten.
Whether things have changed or people have changed.
Suddenly realizing,
You have come a long way.
In southern cities,
a light on the wall,
reaching out,
the texture of the old days.
Time,
if calculated by the formula,
f(x)=0.
Time urges people to grow up.
So, is it an odd function or an even function?
Escape this reality for a while.
There was a ripple in my heart.
Take out the bottle of kvass from the luggage.
The taste is mellow and slightly sweet.
Close my eyes,
think of the line from “Da Mo Liu Lang Zhe”,
“O ever youthful,O ever weeping”
END
Fujian
